Is it a must to sleep sarong?? So that his head will look nicer?
Is it a must to stay at home? So that he wont' become "huey kah"?
Is it a must to eat green vegetables? If do not eat, will he hate vegetables when he grows up??
Is it a must to eat carrots? Will it neutralize the western medicine effects?
Is it a must to look after Bryant when I'm at home? Will he forget my existence or grow distant if I did not?
Is it a must to insist on own style of upbringing for the child?
Is it a must to move out? Will moving out solve all the problems?
Why are there so many "Is it a must..??"
I feel so tired... so drained out..
Can I live with it.. ?? How long can I take it??
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Cosy cosy
Last 2 nights, Bryant have been waking up @ 11pm and flipped over on his tummy n used his sweetest smile to look at us.
On the first night, we were abit shocked why he woke up suddenly. I tried to pat him sleep but to no avail. He kept fussing, so no choice, i carried him and put him on our bed. Within minutes, he fell asleep! He slept with his arms wide-spread on hubby side. When hubby came in, he looked at him, looked at me, 'where am i goin to sleep??!!"
I shifted him to the middle so that hubby could sleep. Once hubby lay on the bed, Bryant turned over and lay on him. Hahaha! Hubby could not move at all! He looked at me and I kept laughing there. Tried to pull Bryant back to my side, but after awhile, he turned to hubby's side again. Hahaha! That night, Bryant and I slept very soundly, only poor hubby, couldn't sleep well at all coz he cant move!
Last night, Bryant woke up again @ 11pm. Hubby looked at him 'Dun tell me you want to sleep with us again..?'. He flashed his toothless smile at him! Hahaha!! Hubby looked at me 'Haiz, carry him over..' I teased hubby 'seems like Bryant prefer your smell than my smell le..'
He's so cute.. but I do not want to let him make it a habit to sleep with us everynight. There's alot of accidents that babies were suffocated to death when sleeping with parents. Though we gave him alot of space, is better to be safe.
Found this from one of Jan mummies blog.. Hehe..
On the first night, we were abit shocked why he woke up suddenly. I tried to pat him sleep but to no avail. He kept fussing, so no choice, i carried him and put him on our bed. Within minutes, he fell asleep! He slept with his arms wide-spread on hubby side. When hubby came in, he looked at him, looked at me, 'where am i goin to sleep??!!"
I shifted him to the middle so that hubby could sleep. Once hubby lay on the bed, Bryant turned over and lay on him. Hahaha! Hubby could not move at all! He looked at me and I kept laughing there. Tried to pull Bryant back to my side, but after awhile, he turned to hubby's side again. Hahaha! That night, Bryant and I slept very soundly, only poor hubby, couldn't sleep well at all coz he cant move!
Last night, Bryant woke up again @ 11pm. Hubby looked at him 'Dun tell me you want to sleep with us again..?'. He flashed his toothless smile at him! Hahaha!! Hubby looked at me 'Haiz, carry him over..' I teased hubby 'seems like Bryant prefer your smell than my smell le..'
He's so cute.. but I do not want to let him make it a habit to sleep with us everynight. There's alot of accidents that babies were suffocated to death when sleeping with parents. Though we gave him alot of space, is better to be safe.
Found this from one of Jan mummies blog.. Hehe..
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
A Very Long Week
Last week seem to pass very slowly...
Bryant was admitted to hospital on Wednesday. I cried till eyes swollen. Bryant also cried due to the injections and suctions. So poor thing. Whenever the nurse came n neubilised him, he would cried out loudly. I was so heartbroken, yet I can't do anything except to hold him tightly to prevent him from turning away. He was super cranky, coz he did not have sufficient sleep during the day. No choice, I asked my daddy to bring over the portable sarong on the 3rd day and finally, he can hv a better sleep. Everynight, I hugged Bryant to sleep with me on the sofa bed.
Finally, PD said Bryant can be discharged on Saturday but still gotta be on neubiliser every 4 hourly. But at least he can go home lioa. :)
When we reached home, I can see Bryant was very happy. He kept smiling and kicking his legs. But he started to have nightmares whenever he takes afternoon naps :( He would suddenly scream out loudly. I think he must have dreamt of those nurses giving him medicine, injection anti-biotics etc. :(
Yesterday went back to PD clinic for review. PD said his lungs was CLEARED!! But still gotta be on neubiliser every 6 hourly till this Fri den back to oral ventolin.
Hope Bryant will forget this ordeal and back to his normal lifestyle soon.
I better go back to workforce soon, there's tension at home and makes me difficult to breathe sometimes...
Bryant was admitted to hospital on Wednesday. I cried till eyes swollen. Bryant also cried due to the injections and suctions. So poor thing. Whenever the nurse came n neubilised him, he would cried out loudly. I was so heartbroken, yet I can't do anything except to hold him tightly to prevent him from turning away. He was super cranky, coz he did not have sufficient sleep during the day. No choice, I asked my daddy to bring over the portable sarong on the 3rd day and finally, he can hv a better sleep. Everynight, I hugged Bryant to sleep with me on the sofa bed.
Finally, PD said Bryant can be discharged on Saturday but still gotta be on neubiliser every 4 hourly. But at least he can go home lioa. :)
When we reached home, I can see Bryant was very happy. He kept smiling and kicking his legs. But he started to have nightmares whenever he takes afternoon naps :( He would suddenly scream out loudly. I think he must have dreamt of those nurses giving him medicine, injection anti-biotics etc. :(
Yesterday went back to PD clinic for review. PD said his lungs was CLEARED!! But still gotta be on neubiliser every 6 hourly till this Fri den back to oral ventolin.
Hope Bryant will forget this ordeal and back to his normal lifestyle soon.
I better go back to workforce soon, there's tension at home and makes me difficult to breathe sometimes...
Sunday, August 5, 2007
Bronchitis
Is bronchitis.
PD confirmed with us on Sat morning when we brought him back for review. Bryant needs to be on neubiliser again. :( PD said his airway very sensitive. Stuck with phlegm. She has to suck out mucus via his mouth n nose. Bryant cried very badly, I also cried with him.
When I want to use the neubiliser, he started to cry and use his arms to block his nose. I pacified and soothed him but to no avail. He kept crying non-stop and I had to stop the neubiliser. Touched his hand and he jerked his hand away from me and looked away. HE IS ANGRY WITH ME! I feel so sad! Our relationship has just only improved and this had to happen. :(
He kept coughing non-stop. When I feed him medicine, he cried and vomited. He's also rejecting milk and water and very cranky. I am in total loss.
PD said this could be inheritary. Suspect he gets from deli as deli got sensitive nose. PD said if this happens the third time, she wants to start on preventive measures. Tomorrow going back for review again. Hope he can be off the neubiliser but I doubt so as I can still hear the phelgm when he's breathing.
He has not been smiling much for 2 days. His weight has also dropped. I couldn't sleep last nite at all coz he kept coughing and unable to sleep well. Pray hard this ordeal can be over soon.
PD confirmed with us on Sat morning when we brought him back for review. Bryant needs to be on neubiliser again. :( PD said his airway very sensitive. Stuck with phlegm. She has to suck out mucus via his mouth n nose. Bryant cried very badly, I also cried with him.
When I want to use the neubiliser, he started to cry and use his arms to block his nose. I pacified and soothed him but to no avail. He kept crying non-stop and I had to stop the neubiliser. Touched his hand and he jerked his hand away from me and looked away. HE IS ANGRY WITH ME! I feel so sad! Our relationship has just only improved and this had to happen. :(
He kept coughing non-stop. When I feed him medicine, he cried and vomited. He's also rejecting milk and water and very cranky. I am in total loss.
PD said this could be inheritary. Suspect he gets from deli as deli got sensitive nose. PD said if this happens the third time, she wants to start on preventive measures. Tomorrow going back for review again. Hope he can be off the neubiliser but I doubt so as I can still hear the phelgm when he's breathing.
He has not been smiling much for 2 days. His weight has also dropped. I couldn't sleep last nite at all coz he kept coughing and unable to sleep well. Pray hard this ordeal can be over soon.
Friday, August 3, 2007
Bad Mommy
Bryant is SICK again :(
Just brought him to see his PD in the morning. He got flu, cough, gastric flu and eye infection. Dr Heng said needa start him on ventolin just in case his bronchitis attack again. When I fed him medicine just now, he was crying so badly. I have become a villain again, forcing him to drink those awful syrups... His body abit warm, think may have fever soon..
Mil says is bcoz I gave him too much veg to eat. She said some veg is "cold" and somemore I asked her to feed him for 4 days for 1 type of veg. He just started on spinach yest and broccoli the last 4 days.
PD said there is a virus, her clinic alot of these cases these 2 days.
Hope Bryant can recover soon. Miss his smiles and laughter..
Just brought him to see his PD in the morning. He got flu, cough, gastric flu and eye infection. Dr Heng said needa start him on ventolin just in case his bronchitis attack again. When I fed him medicine just now, he was crying so badly. I have become a villain again, forcing him to drink those awful syrups... His body abit warm, think may have fever soon..
Mil says is bcoz I gave him too much veg to eat. She said some veg is "cold" and somemore I asked her to feed him for 4 days for 1 type of veg. He just started on spinach yest and broccoli the last 4 days.
PD said there is a virus, her clinic alot of these cases these 2 days.
Hope Bryant can recover soon. Miss his smiles and laughter..
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Why do we need to work????
ARGHHH!! This is the 2nd time I'm typing this!! Just now dunno hit what key and all my post gone! Now gotta re-complain again! ARGGHH!!
I was saying... I am so tired recently, with users chasing after me, i chased after chengdu staff, optus chased after me and i chased sesami. Then I get scolded by user saying I messed up his testing time which i find it ridiculous! He complained up to my TL and my TL called me from Optus to ask me what has happened. After listening to my explanation, he asked me to ignore that user coz he is THAT PARANOID.
Been quite upset recently. Went for upgrade interview a few weeks ago and the results is out. I'm REJECTED. Reason being: 1) Degree too technical; 2) Results so-so, no honours What is this man!?! My friends who took the same degree as me are SAs now! 1 promoted to Team Leader, another Project Manager! I really don't understand. I have been covering SA work for quite sometime lioa yet still say I don't have the skillset. Really demoralising. Think this is the indication to ask me to MOVE ON. My friends said "This is LIFE lor! Face it bravely!!"
SICKENING!!
But when i reach home from work, once I see bryant's smile, I feel so much better. He really brightens up my day when he smiles and laughs at me. :) Told deli that I want to resign and be SAHM (Stay At Home Mum) and he rejected my application immediately. -_-"
Anyway, I don't think I can take it if I have to stay at home 24x7. Moreover life will be very tight with single income. Women should stay employed to get connected with outside world and *touch wood* in case the husband stray, we are able to support ourselves!
I was saying... I am so tired recently, with users chasing after me, i chased after chengdu staff, optus chased after me and i chased sesami. Then I get scolded by user saying I messed up his testing time which i find it ridiculous! He complained up to my TL and my TL called me from Optus to ask me what has happened. After listening to my explanation, he asked me to ignore that user coz he is THAT PARANOID.
Been quite upset recently. Went for upgrade interview a few weeks ago and the results is out. I'm REJECTED. Reason being: 1) Degree too technical; 2) Results so-so, no honours What is this man!?! My friends who took the same degree as me are SAs now! 1 promoted to Team Leader, another Project Manager! I really don't understand. I have been covering SA work for quite sometime lioa yet still say I don't have the skillset. Really demoralising. Think this is the indication to ask me to MOVE ON. My friends said "This is LIFE lor! Face it bravely!!"
SICKENING!!
But when i reach home from work, once I see bryant's smile, I feel so much better. He really brightens up my day when he smiles and laughs at me. :) Told deli that I want to resign and be SAHM (Stay At Home Mum) and he rejected my application immediately. -_-"
Anyway, I don't think I can take it if I have to stay at home 24x7. Moreover life will be very tight with single income. Women should stay employed to get connected with outside world and *touch wood* in case the husband stray, we are able to support ourselves!
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