Quiet X'mas...

This year X'mas is a quiet affair for us. My father-in-law passed away on 16/12/07, Sunday, due to heart failure. The whole family was at home when he had heart attack. I think he died on his way to hospital. It was so sudden!

Deli was very sad. He kept crying non-stop and always in a daze. He refused to eat, drink and sleep. I was so worried for him during the 5 days' wake. He fainted when my FIL was cremated. He really misses him alot.

MIL is also very sad. She always hides in her room to cry. She still cries now and then but has already accepted the fact that FIL is no longer around.

The house is so quiet now.

Life is really so unpredictable and fragile. We should treasure our loved ones and spend more time with them whenever we can.

X'mas pressie??

Nope! This is not his x'mas gift. This is his monthly gift! ;)
Check out his new transport!! Hehehe!

new cap..

Bryant hates having thing on his head BUT his mummy likes to put things on his head. Hehehe!

Mark of warrior

His fingernails are really sharp!!

clap clap

Other than clapping hands, Bryant also likes to smack his lips to indicate good food, point his t-shirt to indicate "mei mei". Hope he can pick up more hand gestures soon. :)

I love to bath! :)

Bryant enjoys his morning bath very much. He used to cry previously whenever we bathed him. Now he cries when we carry him out of bathtub. ;)

Family Photo

Someone helped to take a family photo for us at Istana.

I hate this word

Bronchitis.

Bryant is on nuebilizer now. His cough seems to get better during the day but night time he still coughs alot. Sometimes even vomit. :(

PD said to start him on inhaler after this time.

He is still drinking diluted milk and seems like not full. So I gave him watery porridge. He is very happy, think he misses his solid food. But he can't eat much, will feel nauseous. At least he is eating. :)

Bringing him back for review this Thursday. Hope he can be off neubilizer.

bryant is sick again :(

Bryant is sick again :(

He was coughing on Tuesday night so I quickly brought him to see PD on Wednesday morning. PD quickly put him on ventolin just in case Bronchitis acted up again. Also told PD Bryant always feel nauseous whenever we fed him porridge. She suspect is gastric flu and prescribed BabyLife (good bacteria powder) for him to take.

Last night around 2am, Bryant woke up crying and coughing non-stop. He also feel nauseous throughout. I was so worried, wanted to rush him to A&E, but Deli stopped me and asked me to let him sleep in bed instead. But he was still cranky, so I tried to play with him to distract him. He finally slept close to 4am.

I am waiting for him to wake up from his morning nap so that I can bring him to see PD. My heart really aches when he cried last night coz I know he is feeling unwell and sleepy but unable to do so coz he feel nauseous.

Joanna Wedding (21/11/07)

Funny Faces

Gymboree vs Kindermusik

Brought Bryant to attend Gymboree and Kindermusik trial classes during the last two weekends.

Gymboree
More physical. Teaches babies how to crawl and walk correctly.
The place is spacious and allows babies to crawl/walk all over. Bryant enjoys himself very much as there are alot of interaction with other babies. :)

Kindermusik
More on music making and singing.
The room is small but cosy. Have quite a few instruments for the babies to try out. But Bryant prefers to explore on his own. ;)

I like both! :) But I can only choose 1 for Bryant to attend. Deli feels that Gymboree is more suitable for Bryant as is more physical. He feels that the teacher in Kindermusik does not have a powerful voice to capture the babies' attention and Bryant also can't sit still to play the instruments.

Stress Stress Stress...

Sunday outing

Brought Bryant out for shopping last Sunday at Orchard. Went to Paragon Toysrus and Taka. Bought him a "Step Start: Walk 'n Ride".





Went to taka and took some photos with the X'mas tree. :)

Grouchy Junior

Grouchy Junior does not want to clean his body.. ;)

New playground

Bryant is getting mobile nowadays, therefore, we always let him cruise in his playpen during the day.

I CAN WALK!!

Mummy!!! I can walk lioa!!! But with support la!! Hehehe!!

Mass Update...

Was on leave SECRETLY on Monday. Met up with Calyn, Mayling n Kat. We went to try anti-oxidant hot bed theraphy in Tampines. Was very relaxing so Mayling and Calyn signed up for the package. I did not as Tampines is too FAR for me lioa. After that, we went shopping. A very nice day for me tho was raining. Very relaxing and made me refreshed. :) Think I shall do this once a month! Hehe!

Was also on leave yesterday to look after bryant as MIL needs to work. Had a great time with him. :)

Bryant is getting taller!!

Bryant is getting taller lioa. His current length is 77cm. He likes to stand in his cot and play hide 'n' seek with us. I'm very worried he might topple over thus I asked Deli to lower the plank to the lowest level.

Mini playpen

Bryant now knows where I keep his toys and always asked me to bring him over to let him choose his own toys. Sometimes, he wants to sit inside and play, but not for long la! ;p

Recruit Yeo

Mummy.. I dun want to go NS!!!

New Toy!

Juz bought a new toy for Bryant from KiddyPalace. A bead-chaser and a shape sorter. This is more for training his motor-skills. He does not really like the bead-chaser. Think must let him play a few more times. :)

Tired weekend

Deli jio the gang to go chiong on Friday night during the wedding dinner. We settled on The Arena as it just opened in May and none of us have went before.

But Im soooo disappointed in The Arena. Is live band but not my style of music. After 30mins, I decided to go MOS instead and so we changed place immediately.

The music is definitely better and put me into dancing mood. :) Is been a long time since I went dancing. I enjoyed myself alot. Glad that Deli pushed me to go and relax. Had fun till 2am, reached home just in time to feed my prince. :) Manage to sleep at 3am but our prince decided to wake up and play at 6am. *pull hair* No matter how I pacify him, he refused to go back to bed.

On Saturday afternoon, we went to visit Grace. Bryant, the nosey parker, saw baby Cheryl and started to crawl towards her to rock her rocker, and also tried to pull her down from her rocker. -_-" He also crawled all over the house and pulled everything he can get hold of. But I think he enjoyed himself alot coz he kept smiling and "talking" to Ginny and Sean. :)

Stephy Wedding

Steph held her wedding dinner on 29/10/2007, Monday. We had a great time, looks more like a gathering for us than a wedding banquet. Hehehe! Took alot of photos, as usual, without the wedding couple. ;)

Lousy weekend :(

I had insisted to bring Bryant out on Saturday although he just recovered from his fever and flu. He was super cranky at Sebas house due to insufficient sleep. I brought him into guestroom and tried to coax him to sleep but to no avail! He was throwing his tantrums and crying loudly! Everyone outside was worried but dare not say anything.

Deli came into the room and snatched away Bryant from me! Scolded me for not listening to him by insisting to bring him out. Bryant was crying non-stop and kept on leaning towards me but Deli refused to let me near him. I was close to tears! :( He warned me not to bring Bryant back to my mum's place on Sunday and we were to go home immediately. Suddenly Bryant vomited and I quickly snatched him back! Sebas drove us home and Bryant fell asleep in the car.

Both of us were quiet and ignored each other. MIL cooked us mee hoon soup for dinner. When we were having dinner, he asked me if I have understood his sentence. I stared blankly at my dinner and nodded my head and continued to eat.

He continued to tell me off! Asked me not to spread our home affairs to my good friends. If I am unhappy, I should say it out! Asked me not to act smart. Asked me is it I feel very proud by telling others. I could feel his stare but I chose to ignore and continued to eat. Not getting any reply from me, he stood up and left the kitchen angrily.

I was very upset and couldn't sleep at night. Alot of thoughts went thru' my mind.

"y arent i crying?? i got scolded le"
"do i feel proud tellin others? no im not, so y is he using this word on me? i need a venting out channel.. y i not allowed to do so?"
"am i acting smart? if im really smart, i wont marry him"
"am i happy?? no, im not.. im not me anymore"
"where's old shuping? i got no idea, she's lost"
"do i still love him? i dunno wat does love stands for now.. "
"wat does marriage stands for? to me: marriage stands for a couple to stay thru thick n thin, good n bad health"
"so does my marriage fulfils this criteria? i guess yes coz we went thru my bad health, so wat had happen?"
"will i be happy if im no longer in this marriage? maybe, at least i no need to face ppl i dun like"
"will bryant be happy? bryant will no longer be the same coz family is incomplete"
"shd i stay n persist on for bryant's sake? i really dunno.."
"so does he still loves me? maybe yes, maybe no, maybe he in love with other? he's waiting for me to initiate, i really dunno.. "
"does he really understand me?? sometimes yes, sometimes no, i really dunno.."
"y are there "dunno" answers?? I REALLY DUNNO!"

He was at his usual self yesterday. That's his usual way of handling matters. Pretend nothing has happen. Even he is in the wrong, he will also not apologise. I tried not to talk to him if possible. Answered him when he asked me questions.

The ice was broken when I watched the 9pm Channel U movie. It was saying something funny and I started to laugh for the first time yesterday. He looked at me and smiled "Very funny hor??"

Although we have started to talk to each other, I don't feel the same anymore.

Uncle Fat Fat House

Sebas and Carol invited us last Saturday, 27/10/07, to their house for steamboat as a thank-you dinner for helping them on their wedding day. I decided to bring Bryant along. But before going over to their house, we brought him to cut hair at Linda's place. Well, he has grown up and REFUSED to cut his hair. No choice, I have to coax him to sleep then can trim his hair.






As he did not have sufficient sleep, he was super cranky at Sebas house after I fed him his porridge! I had a hard time coaxing him to sleep. Deli was super angry with me and decided to go home halfway through the dinner. I was very upset. :(

Yes, is MY fault

I have passed my flu virus to Bryant. Brought him to PD last Tuesday evening. His lungs is cleared so was only given flu medicine.

The next day, FIL called me around 6pm and told me Bryant was running a temperature. I quickly rushed home and brought him to PD again. Lungs is still cleared but his temperature was very high, 38.7 deg! PD prescribed fever med and anti-biotics.

Brought him back for review on Thursday and his temperature had gone back to normal. PD said we can stop the fever med and only continued his anti-biotics for 7 days. But his nose is still abit blocked.

Is all mummy's fault. If only we sleep in separate room then I will not pass to you but I can't bear the thought of you not sleeping by my side. I am a SELFISH mummy! :(

Result OUT

Is NOT cancer. What a relief!

I have a ulcer in my mouth for 1 mouth. I went to seek GP advice. She said this is not a cold sore but she is worried it MIGHT be cancerous as it did not disappear for such a long time. Normal ulcer should disappear after 3 days. Therefore, with her advice, I went to seek specialist help in TTSH. The senior surgeon said this is retention cyst. Asked me not to worry so much. If the ulcer still did not disappear, I can come back to the clinic, and he'll surgically removed it for me. Minor operation.

Now I can sleep in peace!! :)

Sebas Wedding

Sebas held his customary wedding on 15/10/2007. We girls were asked to be his bride's "sisters" while the guys were the "brothers". Was a long and tiring day but everyone enjoyed themselves. :)

She is getting on my nerves!

I took leave on Tuesday to rest after a hectic day helping Sebas on Monday. Since I'm at home, I took care of Bryant needs. I don't see any problem at all!

BUT she is not making my task easy! As Bryant is being looked after by her from Monday to Friday, he tends to stick to her. Logical! No wrong! To me, in order to bridge the gap between us, I must make more effort to take care of his needs and have more bonding sessions.

I tried to feed him dinner and he saw her walking around the house and started to cry. She came out of her room and sat beside me and used toys to distract him from crying but Bryant still howls.

No choice. I decided to carry him to feed finish his dinner. She said she wants to take over but I rejected her offer and asked her if I can feed him. She actually said "CAN.. BUT HE DOES NOT WANT YOU AT ALL!!" and cried at the same time!

I was furious and carried Bryant to kitchen and finished feeding him in peace.

How can she said this type of thing to me!? Maybe I am OVER-REACTING.. But I still think she should not talk in this manner to me. Show no respect to me!

I hate her presence now. How I wish I can get out of that HELL soon!!

He can stand!

Got a feeling he is going to walk soon! ;p

Quote of the Day!

An Exercise a Day keeps the FATS at Bay! ;)

Deli Angry Again..

MIL called @ 8.30pm, reminded me not to be home late, reminded me what "shen" has said. I said "OK". She called again @ 9.30pm, "IYOH!! What time you want to come back!?!" Replied her "Now". Told Deli we should head home and he agreed. On our way back, he asked me what she said and I told him.

When we reached home, she was shouting at her top of voice at FIL. "Why I cannot call them??!! I looked after him from Mon to Fri le!!" By then, Bryant has woke up and started to cry and I quickly went back to our room. Deli closed the door and went to their room. Deli asked MIL what's the issue and MIL said FIL complained that MIL should not called and disturb us. Deli asked her why she called me. She said should not come home so late. Deli replied "He's my son and I decide what time he comes home!" MIL started to scream "Why shuping never tell you!!" Deli shouted "She did tell me!! Mon to Fri you looked after him and I don't care what you do. But weekend he's being look after by me so you don't bother us!!" She screamed again "I care about him!!!" Deli shouted "I don't care! Just don't disturb us!!" She screamed again "I know I cannot carry him during weekend, cannot call!" Deli replied "YOU better remember what you say!" and left their room. Outside became very quiet. Deli came back into our room, smiled at Bryant and went to bath.

At that point of time, I felt very sad. Our house is no longer peaceful since Bryant's arrival. I am not blaming Bryant. All of us love him very much and want the best for him but all of us have different methods. Suddenly, I really wish to become SAHM so that I can take care of him myself and reduce the conflicts. But one house cannot have two women to control the port. Unless we have our own house, else this idea won't work. :(

Loooonnnggg Day

We decided to bring Bryant to Tampines Ikea on Saturday. I have arranged to meet with Calyn, Venus and Kat. Went over to Calyn's house first. Peipei initiated to carry Bryant, and he started to cry. Think coz he seldom/never see her before thus such BIG REACTION. He never cry when Deli's relatives carry him. After having lunch at Calyn's house (my fav, KFC.. hehe!), we went to IKEA. Bryant was quite tired by then and soon fell asleep in his stroller. He slept for about 1 hour. The next destination was Courts. Deli was looking for his Winning Eleven (Xbox game) but he couldn't find it. After that, we went to Giant. By then was Bryant's dinnertime time. We went to foodcourt and I fed him his potato porridge. He finished EVERYTHING!! ;) Think must be very hungry. After his dinner, we went to shop awhile in Giant. He met a baby boy who's same age as him and he weighs whooping 12kg!! WOAHH! Bigger size than my darling. My darling LOST lioa! Heard from Deli that little baby kept touchin Bryant's shoe-sock, while Bryant kept touching his head..






We went back to J8 to meet Sebas and gang coz have helpers' meeting for Sebas wedding. Bryant was cranky again coz insuff sleep for the day. Wanted to go home immediately after dinner but Bryant fell asleep in his stroller. After our dinner, we went to Olio Dome for the meeting. Been such a long time since we last went. The place changed alot but the staff still the same. :)
We stayed till 9.30pm and we went home!

Couple Time

Deli and I met up for dinner and shopping after work today. He wanted to buy a shirt for Sebas wedding dinner but couldn't find any nice ones. Went to Raoul, but too expensive. Still got 1 more week to find. :) When we reached home ard 9.15pm, our darling had already slept. We were quite disappointed as we rushed home immediately after dinner, hoping to spend a few minutes with him before his night sleep. Haiz. Nvm, we still have tomorrow. :) Oh ya, I bought a food jar for Bryant. Tomorrow can use when we go ikea shopping! Hehe!

Girls' Outing

Met up with the girls last night for dinner and shopping. Marie told us Carol hope we can wear cobalt blue in the morning. Initially we thought this color will be very difficult to find so we decided on yellow color but when we reached Far East, we can see this color EVERYWHERE. I managed to get a simple blue dress from Spellbound. I only need to buy a pair of heels and I'm DONE! ;) Now must start to crack our brains.. How to sabo our good fren, Sebassss....

Wai Po's House

Brought him back to my mum's place on Sunday.

Blog Time...

Been busy with work from Monday till now. Finally finished my program changes and is now ready for UAT. Feel so tired..

Bryant has been feeling nauseous since last week when we fed him cereal for breakfast. Went to seek Kat's help. She suggested feeding him with baby biscuits or bread or oatmeal. Gave him baby biscuits with milk for breakfast yesterday morning and he likes it! :) Keep clapping hands! Hahaha!

Then today fed him bread with milk, and his nauseous symptoms came back again. -_-" He looks like having morning sickness. No choice, gave him his milk bottle.

Im really dunno what to feed him for breakfast lioa! Not sure whether he is a fussy eater or he is really sick of breakfast. :(

I feel so Happy.. Happy Happy Happy...

I am so HAPPY today!! Bryant has given me three surprises!! :)

1) Bryant waved bye bye to FIL when we were about to leave the house
2) His tooth is coming out! Felt it when I fed him food. Is bottom front right!!
3) After eating, he clapped his hands!

We were supposed to go Sean's house today for BBQ but Deli last minute remembered he got CPA game at BAS. I was very disappointed as I wanted to spend more time alone with Bryant. After much thinking, I decided to bring Bryant out myself so I went to inform Deli but Deli suggested we followed him to BAS instead. I was very happy and went to get ready.
Bryant did not really enjoyed the match. Watched two quarters and he started to get cranky. Brought him to the lobby to enjoy the fan as the court was very humid. Finally managed to coax him to sleep. Today is the first time he slept 2 hours in his stroller!!! Must be super tired! Hahaha!!
Brought him to Mac and gave him some fillet 'o' fish. He tried to "attack" my nuggets instead. -_-"
In summary, today was GREAT! :)

Hectic Week

This week is so hectic for me, busy with UAT. So many problem logs. Thank goodness I have managed to solve all by today. My TL has promised user to deliver by tomorrow. User is still testing now, hope everything will be fine. *keep my fingers cross*

He's going to CRAWL soon!! ;)

His Favourite Pose

This is his favourite pose when he wakes up from sarong. So cute but DANGEROUS! -_-"

He eats EVERYTHING!

As long his pacifier is not inside his mouth and whatever things his hands can get hold of, will go into his little mouth. ;)

Sick again :(

Bryant was sneezing and had running nose on Monday. I quickly brought him to see his PD when I came home after work. I was very worried that his bronchitis will come back. PD gave him flu medicine, nasal spray and nasal drip. Brought him back for review yesterday night, and his lungs are still OK! *phew* He still need to be on medication for 2-3 days as he was still sneezing but no more running nose.

On our way home, he was very cranky. Kept crying and screaming inside the cab. He seemed tired coz he kept rubbing his eyes and I'm also worried he was hungry. Gave him his milk bottle but he refused to drink. He cried all the way home. My heart aches. :( When he saw MIL, he immediately stretched out his arms to her. I felt so sad at that point of time. He does not want me! :( She carried him and within minutes, he quieted down. I went to prepared his milk again and carried him back to my room to feed. He still cried on and off. I stopped feeding him and let him play on my bed and he started to relax.
"Am I spending too little time with him?? Should I resign and look after him myself?? Did she talk bad about me in front of him?? Am I hurting himwith the current way of carrying him?? He thinks she's the mother!?!" - all these thoughts were in my mind the whole night. Everything seemed to be wrong for me suddenly.. I hate this feeling, lost and unsure.

He is Well Again

Bryant has finally recovered from his bronchitis. Yesterday PD has comfirmed this and all of us are very HAPPY! PD also suggested that I can start him on 2 solid meals a day thus I am going to start on Monday. :)

Shopping Spreeeee....

Today meet may, zhen and marie for dinner and shopping.

Dress from Zara
Dinner bag from Anterprima
Total damage: S$454.90 (pocket big hole lioa!!)

Had a great time gossiping and shopping. We had decided to do this again next week! Hehe! Saw a group of ang mo (think rugby players) when we were on our way to Orchard MRT station. A few were quite hunky. *drool* They looked very young. Haiz, time passes so fast, next year gonna hit 30 lioa! :(

Wipha Typhoon

Yesterday saw channelnewsasia.com and found out typhoon was going to hit Shanghai. My heart nearly stopped beating. I quickly sms-ed Deli but he did not reply immediately and I thought something bad has happened.

He finally replied after 30mins or so. Told me his airline could be cancelled and alot of shops were closed. Told him to be careful and updated me any progress. He sms-ed me late at night and told me the typhoon was very scary. Hope the airline will resume and he can come back soon.

Juz Us..

Deli has left for Shanghai early this morning. I can see he does not bear to leave Bryant. He carried him tightly and kissed him before he left the house. Little darling thought Deli is going "gai gai" and kept kicking his legs to indicate he is joining him too. -_-" After Deli has left, I had difficulty patting him back to sleep in his cot so I carried him back to our bed, within minutes, he fell asleep. Think he still prefer king-sized bed.

Brought him back to my mum's place in the early afternoon. He was super cranky due to insuff sleep (only took 30min nap in the morning), hunger (ate too little porridge) and stranger anxiety (has not seen my family for 3 weeks!!). Finally managed to coax him to sleep for 1 hour before bringing him to Hougang Mall's ntuc to shop. Daddy accidentally cut his finger when helping mummy to prepare dinner. His finger kept bleeding non-stop so we rushed him down to 24hr clinic. Thank goodness he is OK.

When we reached home, mil wasn't asleep yet so I let her carry Bryant and I went to get ready for his night-wash. When I'm ready to carry him, he turned away from me! MIL "ehh" and smiled at me. I know what she meant: Bryant prefers her. Anyway, I still carried him over and went back to my room to clean him up. Within minutes after cleaning, he fell asleep. MIL asked me where was Bryant when I went to kitchen. Told her he had fell asleep. She was shocked and disappointed that he slept so early.

This week will be just me and Bryant. I have decided to co-sleep with him till Deli come back. I think I am going to enjoy this week of sleeping with him. Juz hope he won't fall off from the bed again. *pray hard* Also hope there won't be any conflicts this week.

Bryant is 8 months old TODAY!! :)

Yippee!! Bryant is 8 months old today!! :)

Today Deli and I brought Bryant to Vivocity to shop. We finally used our stroller today. But Bryant does not like it. I had to stand in front of him so that he can keep still but after awhile he would cry n asked me to carry. Think he needs more time to adjust. :)







Today mil reached home before we went out. When she knew we were going out, as usual, she kept quiet. I was carrying Bryant and about to leave, she came out from her room, with her eyes red and sobbing quietly. She kissed Bryant and went back to her room. DRAMA again! -_-" Too bad Deli missed this and I'm not going to mention to him to spoil our shopping mood. But as the hours passed, I got more angry. What's the problem with her!?! When we reached home and had our dinner, I avoided eye contact with her. She kept trying to get Bryant's attention, and yes, she did it, as usual. After that, when she attempted to indicate "bao bao" to Bryant, I carried him away and back to my room. After that, I heard her chatting/talking to fil, suddenly a sentence came out quite loud "afraid her son close to ah ma!". Wondering if that sentence was meant for me. Anyway, HECK CARE!

This 8 months hasn't been easy for me. I nearly go into depression, thank goodness, my friends sticked around and encouraged me. So much conflicts that I nearly gave up but when I reached home and saw Bryant smiles at me, I know I can't give up. Seeing him smiles at me makes me forget all my unhappiness. He is my miracle, a gift from god. Moving out is MISSION IMPOSSIBLE so I must learn to handle the ordeal which will be thrown at my face in the future.

My wish for Bryant is to grow up healthily. I LOVE U! :)

I Love This Best!! ;)

How did Jan mummy find all these nice videos??

Let's SPIN!

Found another video from Jan mummy's blog! ;P

Accident!

As usual, Bryant was sleeping with us on Sunday morning. Ard 5+am, he starting to make noises to indicate he was hungry. As I saw Deli put his arm around him to hug him, so I use a bolster to block him. Usually, I would also push the cot to the bed to prevent him from falling off but I did not do so that morning. I would also on the side table light but I also did not on that morning.

When I came back to the room, as I stepped nearer to our bed, Bryant started to cry as I have stepped on his hand! I was so shocked and quickly carried him up. He stopped crying once I have picked him up. I tried to feel for any bumps on his head but found none. I was so angry and sad! I started to wake Deli up and asked him why didn't he look after Bryant. He looked at me with sleepy eyes "He fell down? How??"

*grrr

I hugged Bryant tightly and told myself that I would not allow him to sleep with us anymore to prevent anymore accident.

Last nite, Bryant woke up at 4am and refused to go back to sleep in his own cot. No choice, I had to carry him back to our bed and slept with us. Once in bed with us, he fell asleep soundly. When I woke up, I immediately carried him back to his cot. But once he lay in his cot, he opened his eyes wide! Haiz! Think he likes our bed better!

Bryant's New Friend

Last Saturday, Deli's ex-cols, Sam and his wife, Peisan, invited us to their house to attend their daughter, Jiayi, full-month party.





When we reached their house, Bryant became centre of attraction. Everyone kept commenting he is very chubby, asked me how I fed him, etc. Bryant played with them happily. After an hour, he became cranky as it was his afternoon nap time. Thus, I carried and rocked him to sleep for an hour. When we reached home, he was awake and back to his playful self. :)

He was knocked out in the early evening due to insufficient sleep for the day. Thus, I got time for myself. I managed to catch up on my novel and went to bed early too.

Pissed..

Received a call during lunchtime from a china woman who claimed she's doin a survey for asia tv station on hp. Told her Im not free and she asked me to give her juz 2 mins. I insisted not free and she blurted out "U go n Die la!" and hung up on me!!

So PISSED!! Spoilt my friday mood!! **grrr

Who does he look like more??

Everyone kept saying Bryant looks EXACTLY like deli. Hurmp!! It is proven wrong! I won by 4%!! Hahaha!

Busy Friday

Last Friday accompanied Weishei to Comex 2007 during lunchtime. She wanted to buy a HP. In the end, we shopped till 6pm and she did not buy anything but I DID! Hehe!

Total damage:
1) 32" Samsung LCD TV
2) XBOX 360
3) Panasonic digicam (still inside my bag, think deli will scold me for buying another 1)

In the evening, went to attend helpers' meeting for Sebas and Carol's wedding. I'm the rep for the Yeo family as Deli could not make it.

Our job scope:
1) Deli to be in-charge of the red packets for the whole day;
2) Im the wedding dinner receptionist! Hehehe!

Is it a must... ??

Is it a must to sleep sarong?? So that his head will look nicer?

Is it a must to stay at home? So that he wont' become "huey kah"?

Is it a must to eat green vegetables? If do not eat, will he hate vegetables when he grows up??

Is it a must to eat carrots? Will it neutralize the western medicine effects?

Is it a must to look after Bryant when I'm at home? Will he forget my existence or grow distant if I did not?

Is it a must to insist on own style of upbringing for the child?

Is it a must to move out? Will moving out solve all the problems?

Why are there so many "Is it a must..??"

I feel so tired... so drained out..

Can I live with it.. ?? How long can I take it??

Cosy cosy

Last 2 nights, Bryant have been waking up @ 11pm and flipped over on his tummy n used his sweetest smile to look at us.

On the first night, we were abit shocked why he woke up suddenly. I tried to pat him sleep but to no avail. He kept fussing, so no choice, i carried him and put him on our bed. Within minutes, he fell asleep! He slept with his arms wide-spread on hubby side. When hubby came in, he looked at him, looked at me, 'where am i goin to sleep??!!"

I shifted him to the middle so that hubby could sleep. Once hubby lay on the bed, Bryant turned over and lay on him. Hahaha! Hubby could not move at all! He looked at me and I kept laughing there. Tried to pull Bryant back to my side, but after awhile, he turned to hubby's side again. Hahaha! That night, Bryant and I slept very soundly, only poor hubby, couldn't sleep well at all coz he cant move!

Last night, Bryant woke up again @ 11pm. Hubby looked at him 'Dun tell me you want to sleep with us again..?'. He flashed his toothless smile at him! Hahaha!! Hubby looked at me 'Haiz, carry him over..' I teased hubby 'seems like Bryant prefer your smell than my smell le..'

He's so cute.. but I do not want to let him make it a habit to sleep with us everynight. There's alot of accidents that babies were suffocated to death when sleeping with parents. Though we gave him alot of space, is better to be safe.

Found this from one of Jan mummies blog.. Hehe..

A Very Long Week

Last week seem to pass very slowly...

Bryant was admitted to hospital on Wednesday. I cried till eyes swollen. Bryant also cried due to the injections and suctions. So poor thing. Whenever the nurse came n neubilised him, he would cried out loudly. I was so heartbroken, yet I can't do anything except to hold him tightly to prevent him from turning away. He was super cranky, coz he did not have sufficient sleep during the day. No choice, I asked my daddy to bring over the portable sarong on the 3rd day and finally, he can hv a better sleep. Everynight, I hugged Bryant to sleep with me on the sofa bed.

Finally, PD said Bryant can be discharged on Saturday but still gotta be on neubiliser every 4 hourly. But at least he can go home lioa. :)
When we reached home, I can see Bryant was very happy. He kept smiling and kicking his legs. But he started to have nightmares whenever he takes afternoon naps :( He would suddenly scream out loudly. I think he must have dreamt of those nurses giving him medicine, injection anti-biotics etc. :(

Yesterday went back to PD clinic for review. PD said his lungs was CLEARED!! But still gotta be on neubiliser every 6 hourly till this Fri den back to oral ventolin.

Hope Bryant will forget this ordeal and back to his normal lifestyle soon.

I better go back to workforce soon, there's tension at home and makes me difficult to breathe sometimes...

Bronchitis

Is bronchitis.

PD confirmed with us on Sat morning when we brought him back for review. Bryant needs to be on neubiliser again. :( PD said his airway very sensitive. Stuck with phlegm. She has to suck out mucus via his mouth n nose. Bryant cried very badly, I also cried with him.

When I want to use the neubiliser, he started to cry and use his arms to block his nose. I pacified and soothed him but to no avail. He kept crying non-stop and I had to stop the neubiliser. Touched his hand and he jerked his hand away from me and looked away. HE IS ANGRY WITH ME! I feel so sad! Our relationship has just only improved and this had to happen. :(

He kept coughing non-stop. When I feed him medicine, he cried and vomited. He's also rejecting milk and water and very cranky. I am in total loss.

PD said this could be inheritary. Suspect he gets from deli as deli got sensitive nose. PD said if this happens the third time, she wants to start on preventive measures. Tomorrow going back for review again. Hope he can be off the neubiliser but I doubt so as I can still hear the phelgm when he's breathing.

He has not been smiling much for 2 days. His weight has also dropped. I couldn't sleep last nite at all coz he kept coughing and unable to sleep well. Pray hard this ordeal can be over soon.

Bad Mommy

Bryant is SICK again :(

Just brought him to see his PD in the morning. He got flu, cough, gastric flu and eye infection. Dr Heng said needa start him on ventolin just in case his bronchitis attack again. When I fed him medicine just now, he was crying so badly. I have become a villain again, forcing him to drink those awful syrups... His body abit warm, think may have fever soon..

Mil says is bcoz I gave him too much veg to eat. She said some veg is "cold" and somemore I asked her to feed him for 4 days for 1 type of veg. He just started on spinach yest and broccoli the last 4 days.

PD said there is a virus, her clinic alot of these cases these 2 days.

Hope Bryant can recover soon. Miss his smiles and laughter..

Why do we need to work????

ARGHHH!! This is the 2nd time I'm typing this!! Just now dunno hit what key and all my post gone! Now gotta re-complain again! ARGGHH!!

I was saying... I am so tired recently, with users chasing after me, i chased after chengdu staff, optus chased after me and i chased sesami. Then I get scolded by user saying I messed up his testing time which i find it ridiculous! He complained up to my TL and my TL called me from Optus to ask me what has happened. After listening to my explanation, he asked me to ignore that user coz he is THAT PARANOID.

Been quite upset recently. Went for upgrade interview a few weeks ago and the results is out. I'm REJECTED. Reason being: 1) Degree too technical; 2) Results so-so, no honours What is this man!?! My friends who took the same degree as me are SAs now! 1 promoted to Team Leader, another Project Manager! I really don't understand. I have been covering SA work for quite sometime lioa yet still say I don't have the skillset. Really demoralising. Think this is the indication to ask me to MOVE ON. My friends said "This is LIFE lor! Face it bravely!!"

SICKENING!!

But when i reach home from work, once I see bryant's smile, I feel so much better. He really brightens up my day when he smiles and laughs at me. :) Told deli that I want to resign and be SAHM (Stay At Home Mum) and he rejected my application immediately. -_-"

Anyway, I don't think I can take it if I have to stay at home 24x7. Moreover life will be very tight with single income. Women should stay employed to get connected with outside world and *touch wood* in case the husband stray, we are able to support ourselves!

Botak AGAIN! ;)

Today we brought Bryant to our neighbourhood hair salon to shave his hair again. :) Deli said his current hairstyle abit patchy, so hope this time after shaving will grow out nice hair!
In the afternoon, we brought him to Far East Plaza to acc Deli to cut hair. Our hairstylist and her helpers fussed over bryant! ;P Asked me what I fed him, how come so "big". Hahaha!! Bryant was very curious, kept looking around the whole place and wanted me to walk around.
Nowadays, he very "sticky" to Deli lioa coz Deli plays alot with him. Think I must change my method of playing, cannot be too gentle and mild. He seems to enjoy those "exciting" playing, like throwing ball at him, etc. He did laughed with me today. I think our relationship is improving. :)

Happy 6th month!! :)

Bryant is 6 months old!! :)
Time passes so quickly.. Since his arrival, I have become tarepanda.. 6 months lioa.. still the same..
I love looking @ him.. His features keep changing everyday. Initially, everyone says he resembles hubby, now my frens said he resembles my younger brother! Hehe!
Today we brought him to J8 haagan daz to celebrate. Because he did not have enuff sleep in the morning, so he was abit moody when we brought him out.. -_-"
Tho he still not "tokin" alot to me now, I'm sure one day he will warm up to me. GANBATE GINA!! =)

No ice-cream to eat still want me to smileee... :(

Upgrade Interview

Went for upgrade interview @ 3.30pm just now. The questions are mostly asked by Ger Yan (another IS director).

Her questions are really not easy to handle.. eg, "When you move up to SO level, there will be many SO competing during appraisel, how and what are you going to do to make sure you shine?" "Can you handle stress?? What kind of stress you have handle so far? Can you multi-task?" "What makes you think you are suitable to move up to SO grade?"

If I can make it, it is really a miracle!

Deli is ANGRY..

Deli had a heated argument with MIL last night.

Earlier, San Yi called and asked us what time we will be going over to Da Kim house this coming Saturday. MIL told her she will not be going and staying at home to look after Bryant. Only Deli and I will be going. When Deli heard this, he started to ask her how come Bryant cannot go. But MIL did not answer him and he followed her to her room. "Why Bryant cannot go??"

MIL replied him "That time when I went to wen shen, shuping said she will believe then I went to ask. Shen said Jia Kai cannot go out at night!"

Deli looked at her and replied "I want to bring him go Da Kim house on Saturday evening!"

MIL rushed into my room and said "You said you believe then I go and ask!!" I nodded my head.

She went out to living room "You really not going to listen to me?!"

Deli replied "I am his father! And I want to bring him go out this Saturday! Do you know he has not been going back to visit his grandparents for very long time?"

MIL shouted "Go back lo!!"

Deli replied "We will and you better stop talking about this!!" MIL went back to her room and cried.

When I woke up around 4am to prepare milk for Bryant, MIL came out of her room and said want to talk to me after I fed Bryant. She asked me to stand in front of the altar. "I have never stop you going back to your parent's place! They are your parents! They raised you up, just like me, raised Deli up! How can he talk to me like that!!??" And she started to cry. "My heart aches!!" FIL came out and asked MIL to stop ranting. She went back to her room and cried and I went back to my room but was unable to fall alsleep. I felt sad for her but felt that she deserved it too. Conflicting thoughts. She always want things to be in her way, regardless right or wrong, insensitive to others' feelings. Deli is brought up in this manner thus he became rebellious. I only hope Bryant won't become like him because MIL is taking care of him the same way she took care of Deli. *pray hard*

Ridiculous

Deli told me his mum called him during the day to talk about Bryant. She said Bryant fell sick because we brought him out. She said when Bryant fall sick, we are the ones who are looking after him, not my parents. We are the ones who suffer. After hearing this, I felt damned angry! I asked Deli is she trying to say my parents passed the virus to Bryant?? It could be anyone!! His auntie also came to visit Bryant during weekend. It could be her! Deli was calm and tried to pacify me. Said he agreed and disagreed with his mother. He agreed with his mother that we are the ones who are taking care of him and was really hard on us. He also feels that she's abit over-protective over Bryant coz she looks after him during the day and spends alot of time with him. I asked him so is it I cannot go back to my mum's place anymore? He said I'm Bryant's mother, no-one can stop me to bring him back to my mum's place and he feels that his mum is only referring to going out shopping.

We stopped our conversation when we heard the door being opened. I quickly rushed into toilet as I had started crying. When I came out, I avoided eye contact with her and went back into our room. Deli came in after sometime and asked me if I'm angry with him. Told him no. He said his mother asked him if he has told me regarding their afternoon conversation. He told her no and she scolded him not a man if he has told me and yet told her no. I looked at him expressionless "Who told you staying together is a breeze?" He left the room without a word.

My tears start to drop again. :(

Bronchitis..

PD said Bryant got bronchitis. This is the first time I heard of this word on Wednesday. PD explained to me: "The phlegm are stuck in his lungs thus caused inflammation." PD did suction for Bryant but can only removed the phlegm from his nose and throat. I had to rent the neubilizer machine home to neubilize his airway. I was on whole week leave taking care of him. He cried whenever I used the neubilizer. My heart aches but it is for his own good so I hardened my heart n ignored his cries and continued to neubilize him every 4 hours.

Going back for review tomorrow. Hope his condition has improved after all these neubilization.

Bryant is sick :(

Bryant got running nose and cough. Brought him to see PD in the morning. Was given some medicine and to be back tomorrow for review. He does not have much appetite now. PD advises his milk be diluted and increased his milk feeds. Hope he will recover soon.

Mother's Day Celebration / Bryant is 4 months old!

Bryant is 4 months old today ( lunar month)!! Brought him to shave botak! Hehehe! After that, we brought him to Yishun temple to pray.





We decided to hold a small party since is also Mother's Day. Deli's relatives are invited over to play mahjong and had dinner.

1st Outing! ;)

Today brought Bryant out to celebrate Mother's Day with my mummy. We went to Plaza Park Royal Hotel to have lunch buffet. He was super cranky at the end of lunch. We had to rush back to my mummy's home to let him sleep in the sarong. -_-"

Back to work

Today is first day of work.

I miss Bryant!!

Happy Birthday Deli!

Yesterday was Deli's birthday. I bought a mango cake, wanted to surprise him. May and gang came over to visit Bryant so we had a small celebration. :)

SAP Course

This whole week will be on course. Java Web Dynpro course. Is held at The Arcade. Wah.. stressful le. Dun think I'm cut out for Java programming!! :<

First Conflict

I know staying together is not easy. Mummy always reminded me not to be too rash and not to get Deli stuck in-between. BUT THIS IS NOT EASY.

Earlier in the afternoon, Xiao Kim was toking to MIL if Bryant sleep in sarong, his head will be more round and nice. But she knows I do not like the idea of sleeping sarong.

After everyone had left, MIL came to my room and raised her voice at me "Jia Kai is being looked after by me and I want him to sleep in sarong!!"

I was pissed and asked her back "SO when you wanna put him in sarong?? NOW??"

She replied "Not now" and left my room.

I can foresee.. My life will not be peaceful anymore!

1 Month Old! :)

Bryant is turning 1 month old! We had a party at home to share our joy with our relatives and friends. These pics are taken by Shuling's boyfriend, Michael. Very well-taken! Thanks!! :)

1 Week Old!

He's 1 week old lioa! ;)

Welcome aboard!! :)

My baby has arrived on 15/01/07... :)