Last Day of 2008....

Have not been updated my blog for quite sometime..

Been busy with little princess and little terror. :)

Today is the last day for Bryant with NTUC childcare. I have registered him with Thomson MMI and he will start school this Friday. Hope he will like the new environment and friends.

8 weeks have passed and I am going to start work next Monday. Suddenly I do not feel like going back. :( I feel that I have not spent enough time with Sarah. But I'm sure MIL will look after her well. I am also worried Bryant coz this is the first time he is going to and fro to MMI in a school bus. What if he run in the bus and fall down? What if the bus brake hard and he fall to the front? I better stop having the negative thoughts else I would not be able to concentrate at work.

My resolution for 2009 is: Good health for my family especially my 2 kids.

To All: enjoy your last day of 2008!! CHEERS!!! :)

Princess Sarah

This is taken when she went to my mum's place for the first time



This is taken on Tuesday, 09/12/08 :) Her features has changed again.

Superstar!!

Bought for him at the pasar malam... :)

Cosy Sleeping Quarters..

A Mummy's Woes..

Everyone tells me that breastmilk is good for babies but they never said is so TIRING and TIME-CONSUMING.

After Sarah was discharged from hospital, I latched her during every feed, each breast 15mins but she would always fall asleep while feeding. When I put her down on her cot, she would wake up n cried coz was still hungry. Then I would continue to breastfeed again. It would take close to 1hr to ensure she is well-fed. After that, I would pump 30mins for the remaining milk.

As breastmilk is made up of 70% water and rest is other nurtrients, Sarah gets hungry easier. She would scream for her milk about 1.5~2hrs later. Therefore I gotta repeat the WHOLE PROCESS again!! *faintz* I look like a cow!

Now I feed her by bottle. So MIL can help me feed while I pump milk. I would latch her during the night so that I do not need to pump and can sleep longer.

Sarah likes being carry to sleep. She would wake up immediately if we put her back to cot. No choice I let her sleep on her tummy although the nurses reminded me not to as it is very dangerous but Sarah can sleep longer if she sleep on her tummy.




I really dunno what's wrong with Bryant. He kept throwing things all over the place and throw his temper for no reason. :( Deli used the cane on him but he still the same. My heart aches when Deli canes him. Last night Bryant was caned again for throwing his toys on the floor and at me. Deli caned him many times. Bryant cried till his voice became hoarse. There were so many cane marks on his arms and legs. I nearly cried but I controlled my tears from flowing out.

I think Bryant hates us now for always scolding and caning him. But I really do not know what I should do to make sure he understand all these things he done are wrong. Are we using the wrong approach? I hate to cane and scold him but sometimes he is really too much!



Bryant's childcare is also giving me headache. They kept accepting more toddlers but the teachers ratio are still the same. Bryant fell down last week during outdoor and they did not inform me. Bryant's both kneecaps and elbows are swollen. I only know when Bryant reached home and told me is painful. I called the childcare and asked them if Bryant had a fall and what I got back was "Oh? Did he fall down?" I was very angry and told them Bryant complained very painful and were swollen. The teacher said perhaps he fell down during outdoor. Children fall down is very common, but they should inform me even tho is not VERY SERIOUS that require to go hospital.

Bryant wore a t-shirt home that did not belong to him. I quickly called childcare to inform them and the teacher said they have put aside Bryant's t-shirt and would passed back to me the next working day. I went to the childcare that day itself to return the t-shirt but TILL NOW I still have not got back Bryant's t-shirt. I called and asked and NOW THEY SAID they do not know where the t-shirt is. They said will pay me back for the lost t-shirt. I am not chasing them for the $$, is that they should tell me is lost in the first place. I will not get angry coz it is common to misplace but I do not like people to lie to me. The childcare is always very messy during lunchtime as one teacher would prepare milk, one or two look after those who are still eating, two teachers are bathing the toddlers and one teacher would look after those who have finished eating and bathing.

Perhaps all childcare centres are the same, I am expecting too much. *shrug*

Bryant Blabbers..

SHE is finally HERE....

She is so SMALL.. and Daddy, Mummy and Ah Ma do not allow me to go near her. I do not understand why! I just want to play with her!!

I offered her my biscuits, sweets but Mummy said mei mei can only drink milk milk. Weirdo.. Got sweets yet does not want to eat..

I like to watch mei mei sleep. She is very cute. I like to kiss her too :) But sometimes I got too excited and started to get rough with her like pull her hair, pull her mittens or booties. I thought she is same like me and like to play peekaboo so I threw blanket at her to cover her. But mummy scolded me and beat me!! :(

Mummy and Daddy beat me very often now. They said I am a notti boy. They are using the cane on me. It is very painful. :(

I feel very insecure. Mummy used to carry me, now she only carries mei mei. So I always cry when she carry mei mei and want Mummy to carry me too. Then Ah Ma will carry me away. I do not understand why Mummy does not want to carry me!! Is it they do not love me anymore?

Nobody understand how I feels now. I am so sad. :(

Sarah's Thoughts...

I finally saw my family on 5th November 2008. *yawnz*

My Gor Gor is very mischievious. He always shake my cot when I am sleeping, beat my head when mummy is feeding me or throw things into my cot!
Though Gor Gor is very mischievious, he still loves me alot. Everyday after school, he will rush into my room first and called me. Every night he will kiss me before he goes to sleep. *yawnz*

I am allergic to cow's milk therefore I am on total breastfeeding. My mummy is like a cow now, she is either latching me on or pumping milk out. She is so tired till she can't wake up at night to pump milk. I hope she can hear me cry for milk when I move into their room this Friday onwards. *yawnz*

I am driving my mummy and ah ma crazy these few days by refusing to sleep in my cot. I only want to sleep in their arms. Partially is due to my blocked nose and also it feels good to be held tightly by them. *yawnz*

Halloween Nite!

DHL held the D&D on Halloween night. My manager hoped we can dressed up for the event. I did not expect the turnout to be so TERRIFIC! Majority were dressed up and had lotsa fun!

I am dressed up as a preggy witch, hehe. My team-mates all stayed for the dance while I went home. Too tired and fat to dance... Haha!

So sad that I did not win anything for the lucky draw but I think the prize should be quite attractive. My colleague won 79th prize and is $100 voucher!! *drool*

Future Drummer??

My dad bought Bryant a drum set and surprisingly he plays quite well.
Thank god the noise pollution is minimal. Haha!
I asked Deli if we should get one set for him here and he quickly rejected my suggestion. -_-"
Perhaps one day he will set up a band like May Day and play for me! Hehe! *dreaming*

Who says durian is SMELLY?? ;P

I'm Sooooo.... Exciteddd!!!!!

Meimei is going to join our family this coming Wednesday morning!

I hope she is looking forward just like me! ;)

Suddenly I feel so stressed, coz it seems like I'm not really prepared.

Things not done:
1) Digicam and Videocam batt not charged
2) Storage milk bottles not sterilized
3) Breastpump not sterilized and still does not know how to use yet
4) Baby sling not practised yet
5) Have not buy the tapes for Videocam
6) Have not gone to temple to pray
7) Clear my outstanding work as much as possible and inform my col
...

I can't remember liao..
* breathe in, breathe out*

Happy Deepavali!!

We brought Bryant to stay overnight @ Rasa Sentosa Resort over the Deepavali weekend. He enjoyed himself tremendously and also had a good tan! :) He is much darker than me now. My Beach Boy~~ Hehe!

Well, I want him to enjoy himself coz he is going to be in confinement with me for the next month. No more shopping and swimming/tanning excursions for him for the next 4 weeks. Hehe!

Poly Mates Reunion

This reunion dinner is "jio" by Mai. She is currently working in Aust and back for holiday and wanted to meet for dinner before going back again.

Is been a long time since I saw them too. The last time I saw them was during FIL's wake (Dec 2007). Not everyone came as the invitation is via FaceBook and not everyone has FaceBook. The next gathering will be X'mas!! I'm looking forward!! :)

"With This Ring, I Marry You"

Cherlene is Deli's cousin. She held her wedding on 18 Oct 2008 at Rasa Sentosa Resort. It was a beautiful and cosy wedding. The ROM started at 1pm and the JP was a lady. She had her own style of solemnisation and it was very touching.

It reminded me of my solemnisation 5 years ago. I still remembered I was very scared and mumbled thru' my marriage vows. May and Zhen were crying behind. Time passes so fast and I am going to be mother of 2 soon.
:)

Come to think of it, it is really not easy to maintain a marriage. It requires communication and trust. Either one is gone, the marriage is over. Although alot of people got married but are you sure they are happy? Perhaps happy on the surface but not on talking terms?
Is there really such couple who loves each other till death do them part in this world?

On Maternity Leave!!!

I have started my maternity leave this week as I'm getting tired and heavy and TIGHT. This week will be working from home.

I will be able to know when meimei joining us by this Saturday. I had to C-Sect AGAIN because my platelets is running low and they are afraid I may need blood transfusion. :( I just wish meimei will be healthy.

Went shopping with Yanping, Karen and Yongsheng on Tuesday evening. I bought X'mas clothings for meimei and Bryant!! So happy!! I also bought new bedsheets for them for CNY. Hehe! KS Mummy!! Haha!!

Family Day..

We went to Wild Wild Wet on last Saturday, 11 Oct 08, again. Had arranged to meet Betty to let Bryant and Gwen to play together. As usual, Bryant enjoyed himself tremendously! ;) Halfway, my camera BROKE DOWN. Think because Bryant splash water on the camera thus it went nuts. Thank goodness it is OK now.

I feel so happy when I see him smile and laugh! I think that is the greatest gift a mum could ask for. :) Since I'm pregnant, my temper has worsened and I flared up over trival matter. I felt horrible after I scolded Bryant. :( But he still come over and hug me no matter how harsh I am to him.



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Marcus Wedding (10 Oct 2008)

Marcus held his wedding @ Hotel Intercon on last Friday evening. Halfway thru' the dinner, I had tummy pains. It looks like contractions and also looks like tummyache. I couldn't differentiate which is which. In the end, I decided to go home and have a good rest.

Cafe de Mar

We brought Bryant to Cafe de Mar @ Sentosa on 27 September, Saturday. We reached there around 1pm and stayed till 7pm. He enjoyed himself very much. :) We brought water pistols for him to play and he had great fun spraying water at everyone. Haha!

He charmed a few gals and they kept playing with him. Haha!



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"Married But Alone - Are You Going Through An Invisible Divorce?"

Saw this interesting subject in Her World at the newspaperstand and I decided to buy the magz to read about it.

I find this article very meaningful as it reflects the current trend of marriage.

1) Too Busy To Love
This is talking about couples living together and share the bills but lead separate lives, cohabiting more like a passionless housemates than loving life partners.

2) Together for Practically's sake
Couples now prefer a more pragmatic solution when things are falling apart as a divorce can be expensive. By staying together, they not only share the living costs, they also keep the money that could have gone to the lawyers. This also spares the children the trauma of seeing the parents split up. When the relationship is diminished to just mere shared assets and little affection, it is easy for a third party to come into the picture and affect the relationship.

My Thoughts
It is really not easy to keep a marriage alive and loving. Just a slight mistake or carelessness could cause your marriage to fail. Women tend to spend more time with their new-borns and neglect their husbands. When the wives want to spend time with their husbands, it was already too late as their husbands had already found "someone" to share their unhappiness and the "someone" was always by their side. Staying together is just a responsibility.

I HATE this word RESPONSIBILITY. I find it difficult and meaningless as marriage is for years and not a few days only. But it is really really very difficult to make decisions as women tend to be emotional and would always think for their children. They do not want their children to grow up in a broken family. BUT the children will grow up and have their own family, then what would happen to us, women?

"Miss the past, hate the present, fear the future"

Some Updates...

Let's talk about Bryant first.. :)

He is now 91cm tall and weighs about 14.2kg. PD said he is overweight for his age but OK for his height. When I told Calyn and gang, she kept saying "Told you lioa!! Your son is FAT!!" -_-"

He is adapting well in childcare now. Seldom cries now when I sent him there especially when Teacher Alice is around. In fact, recently, he starts to wave bye bye to me and give me a flying kiss. Contradicting feelings again: Happy that he is adjusting well, sad that he no need me lioa. Haiz.. WOMEN!!

Now let's talk about me and Carys.

Went for anenatal checkup last Saturday. Everything is OK and Carys weighs about 1.2kg and I am now 30 weeks + preggy. On Monday night, I fell on the bed on my tummy while trying to save Bryant from falling off the bed. Carys did not move for 30mins and I was very scared. Quickly called gynae and he asked me to get myself admitted to Mt Alvernia. When I reached labour ward, I started to have contractions. Gynae came and checked and found out my contractions have started and was very close but my cervix was not opened tho Carys is very low. He said 30 weeks is too early to give birth so want to suppress my contractions. Gave me med and stay overnight for observations. The med worked and my contractions became longer and by Tue morning, it stopped. Did an ultrascan on Carys and she is OK and weighs about 1.6kg. Gynae decided to let me go home after I promised him that I will take very good care of myself.

Now I am at home resting. Hope everything will be fine and Carys can wait for at least 5 more weeks. :)

Quote of the Day

A real relationship, whether it's with a friend or a lover, is about finding someone who brings out the best in you, enjoys the best in you and loves you for the things that you love.

"The Power of NOW"

The present moment holds the key to liberation.
But you cannot find the present moment as long as YOU ARE the mind.

- by Eckhart Tolle

We cannot change the PAST and we do not know the FUTURE. What we can do is make full use of PRESENT.

My "Achievement"

The mooncakes are COMPLETED!! Hehe! I did it with my mummy's help as I am not allowed to do moulding as elderly believed will affect the unborn.

The white lotus mooncake is the easiest to make. The durian mooncake is the most challenging. As my mummy forgot to put the durian fruit in freezer, it is too soft to mould into a mooncake.

From the pics, those without "face" are durian mooncake while the rest are white lotus.

My colleagues said the durian taste nice, just that the snowskin abit thick. I will improve next year! :)

I am sooooooooo

Excited!!!

Because I just bought the mooncake ingredients during lunchtime and I am going to make my own snowskin mooncakes tonight!! Provided I am not tired after shopping after work. Hehe!

Spent $38.60 on the ingredients and tools. Heard it is very simple to make. Hope it will come out nice. :)

I will be meeting Yanping and Yongsheng for dinner later @ Taka. Will take this chance to "try" the mooncakes and also buy my all-time favourite lao por bing. :)
Yanping also mentioned JL got sales, 1 set cost $9.90.Think I will try to drop by later to get some for Carys and see got any nice ones for Bryant.

White Lotus Mooncake
Ingredients
White Lotus Paste 1kg
Snow Skin Premix 500gm
Cold Water 260ml
Shortening 100gm
Juice Binder 20gm
Cooked Glutinous Rice Flour
Flavouring 2 tbs

Skin Preparation
1. Mix the Snow Skin Premix with Shortening and Juice Binder.
2. Slowly add in Cold Water and Flavouring into the mixture.
3. Leave the mixture for 10-20mins.

Filling Preparation
1. Scatter the Glutinous Rice Powder on the plate.
2. Divide the mixture into 20gm each, White Lotus Paste 30gm each.
3. Flatten the mixture and put the White Lotus Paste into it.
4. Shape into a ball and scatter some Glutinous Rice Powder on it.
5. Put it into the mould and "drop" it out after a while.
6. Put the mooncake into the fridge for about 30mins before eating.

This is a modified recipe. Hope it taste good. :)

中秋节快乐

DHL Family Day 2008

The Family Day was held on 30 August 2008, Saturday, at Siloso Beach. The weather was good. Bryant had a good tan and enjoyed himself tremendously. :)
My luck was quite good too, won 8th prize for the Lucky Draw, $100 Taka vouchers. Hehe!

I Lurve This Song...

Way Back Into Love... Hugh Grant

(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead, I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed, I've been lonely for so long, Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, Just in case I ever need them again someday, I've been setting aside time, To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love. Oooooh.

(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine, I've been searching but i just don't see the signs, I know that it's out there,There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light, Not somebody just to get me through the night, I could use some direction, And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love. And if I open my heart again, I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love, I can't make it through without a way back into love, And if I open my heart to you, I'm hoping you'll show me what to do, And if you help me to start again, You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

We got the...

APPROVAL LETTER!!! ;)

Hip hip hooray!!

Bryant finally went back to school this morning but school was pretty quiet. Well, it is good in a way coz Bryant will hv UNDIVIDED ATTENTION from all the teachers. Hehe!!

He cried quite badly when Teacher Alice attempted to carry him. Think due to long absence from school thus caused this reaction. Anyway, he settled down soon after he washed his hands. Hope he has a great day today. :)

HFMD!

Bryant was down with HFMD on last Wednesday.

Symptoms: small red bubble spots, up-down fever and ulcer in his mouth.

I quickly brought him to see PD that night. Thank goodness is a mild case. He is given anti-viral med for 5 days. When I brought him back for review on Friday night, he has almost recovered. Going to bring him back for 2nd review tonight and also hope to get his "medical cleared" letter.

Every morning when he saw Deli and I getting ready for work, he would quickly take his schoolbag and followed us. I would look at him and said "You can only go to school when you are fully recovered." and he started to howl loudly. I know he misses school, his friends and teachers alot.

Hope tonight we can get the "approval" letter and he can attend school tomorrow. :)

I think..

I shall call mei mei Carys. It means To Love.

Loving a person unconditionally is not an easy task. Because we are all humans and humans are selfish. We tend to expect something in return but are always disappointed. Therefore, we tend to not to love the person 100% just to protect ourselves so that we won't get hurt. I don't think this is the right way to love but sad to say, it is happening everywhere now, I guess.

Ever heard of this "Once bitten, twice shy"?? Just heard this sentence when I watching the HK drama. We dare not try again once we got hurt once. Once the hurt is there, it will never be the same again.

Looking forward for my Carys arrival :)

A ROCKSTAR is BORN!!

"We are Singapore... Singaporeans..."

We celebrated National Day @ Marcus house. Bryant has a "new" girl friend. Hehe! Dorinda set a rule and that is everyone gotta wear red and white since is National Day. It was a beautiful sight, too bad we did not have a group photot.

SIck AGAIN!

Bryant got bronchitis attack again. He stayed at home this whole week. His cough is extremely bad at night, and last night he even vomited. :(

He couldn't sleep well, so did I. I did not sleep a wink at all last night. Feel so tired today. Hope he will recover soon. Thank god his appetite is not affected and is still so active. In fact, he is so active till I nearly go crazy.

His mischiefs:
1) Jumping on sofa
2) Turn circle on sofa
3) Hide in wardrobe
4) Throw all the toys all the floor
5) Take toys and throw at others
6) etc

He definitely needs some DISCIPLINE now.

East Coast Outing (02/08/08)

Deli suggested to bring Bryant to East Coast to enjoy some sun. He was very happy when he saw the sea and kept pulling Deli towards there. But we did not bring extra clothings so did not allow him to play. He was so unhappy with us and kept throwing his tantrums. Deli decided to bring him go cyling to distract him. :)

Who is more forgiving??

Yesterday evening, when I was on my way home taking cab, the radio discussion was "Who is more forgiving? Men or Women?"

Quite a few called in and most of them said women are more forgiving. In what way? For their family sake, they are willing to forgive their husbands if they commit adultery. But for men, they are not so forgiving as it is an impact to their ego.

I think is quite true. Women are willing to keep quiet and stay on though their husbands had strayed, especially those with children. It is not a matter that women can't support themselves, is they do not want their children to grow up in a incomplete family. Asians are more conservative. They believe a COMPLETE family is very important.

But what is the definition of COMPLETE? Everyone stays together but no communication, does that consider COMPLETE? Isn't it meaningless to stay in a loveless marriage? Alot people commented children grow up in a broken family will stray but I saw some children growing in a complete family also strayed so this is not a valid reason. I think this is more on self-disciplined, and the choices you make. You have the CHOICE to become a GOOD or a BAD person.

Therefore, we must teach the correct moral values to our children in order to let them choose the correct path. With the correct moral values, I'm sure the children will know which path is good for them.

Back to the topic, I think women should still think for themselves too. There will be a time when the children will leave to build their own family. When the time comes, they will be alone.

I think I am a forgiving person but definitely will never forget. That's ME! :)

A New Haircut

Brought Bryant to the neighbourhood hairdresser to trim his hair as it is very untidy. Her skills so-so. Mine WORSE! I trim alittle more for him when we reached home.

I'm sorry, Bryant. Mummy is not cut-out to be a hair-dresser. :(

School Time!

Bryant started NTUC childcare on last Monday, 14/07/08. I felt awful for sending him to childcare as he is still so young but I want him to be more independent and have proper conversational skills. I hardened my heart and brought him there.

First day was OK as I was with him for the half day. Perhaps I was there, that was why, he was full of mischief! He bullied 3 toddlers by pulling their hair and they cried so badly. They are from the nursery class and are 3 years old! They got angry and refused to play with him, and one even pushed him to the floor! I got a shock and started to worry if it is a bad idea to start him so young. What if he gets bullied by the older toddlers?



I got a shock on second day when Teacher Alice refused to let me into the class! She carried Bryant in and he started to cry. My heart aches. He cried for 30mins and I hid outside his classroom to peek at him and cried at the same time. I couldn't take it anymore and left. Went to market to walk one round and went back again. Teacher Alice saw me from far and called me and said Bryant has settled down and not to worry. I peeked from window and saw him playing with the toddlers and felt more at ease. Went back home to rest and went back to his school at 11am. He was eating his lunch when he saw me and started to cry again. I went in and glued to me and refused to let Teacher Alice near him.



Third Day: He cried when Teacher Alice took his bag and carried him. Within 10mins, Teacher Alice managed to soothe him and he joined the rest for breakfast. I felt so much better and relieved and went back home. Brought MIl down at 12pm to introduce the teachers as she will be picking Bryant in the future. When we reached there, we couldn't find him. He had actually fell asleep while drinking milk. Spaggetti was served as lunch that day and Bryant never eat therefore Teacher Alice made him some milk. When he saw us, he started to cry again and MIL also started to cry.



This is his second week in childcare. As usual, he cries when about to go in but will settle down after awhile. Hope he can get adjusted well and will not cry again. Bryant! Jia You!! :)

Wild Wild Wet @ Downtown East

We brought Bryant to Wild Wild Wet on 12/07/08, Saturday. He enjoyed himself very much. He was full of smiles :)
I bought him a thermal swimwear which cost me a bomb, $60!! Thank God, it really keep him warm as he has bronchitis history and I was worried he may fall sick.



H really loves the water alot and refused to let us hold his hand. He only want to explore by himself. Initially, I was still worried that he will be afraid and cry but he proved me wrong and enjoyed himself more than us. :)



He was knocked out and slept all the way home till the next day. I will definitely bring him out to play water more often. :)

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Blu Jazz

We had a small farewell drinks session @ Blu Jazz for Albert. He was supposingly to take over from James Teng to become Team Leader for our team but he decided to go back school in UK.