Bryant was sneezing and had running nose on Monday. I quickly brought him to see his PD when I came home after work. I was very worried that his bronchitis will come back. PD gave him flu medicine, nasal spray and nasal drip. Brought him back for review yesterday night, and his lungs are still OK! *phew* He still need to be on medication for 2-3 days as he was still sneezing but no more running nose.
On our way home, he was very cranky. Kept crying and screaming inside the cab. He seemed tired coz he kept rubbing his eyes and I'm also worried he was hungry. Gave him his milk bottle but he refused to drink. He cried all the way home. My heart aches. :( When he saw MIL, he immediately stretched out his arms to her. I felt so sad at that point of time. He does not want me! :( She carried him and within minutes, he quieted down. I went to prepared his milk again and carried him back to my room to feed. He still cried on and off. I stopped feeding him and let him play on my bed and he started to relax.
"Am I spending too little time with him?? Should I resign and look after him myself?? Did she talk bad about me in front of him?? Am I hurting himwith the current way of carrying him?? He thinks she's the mother!?!" - all these thoughts were in my mind the whole night. Everything seemed to be wrong for me suddenly.. I hate this feeling, lost and unsure.
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